Stayed Up Late
It is late for me… 11:22pm. I stayed up to start my “what the hell do I want to be if I grow up now that I have stopped denying my creative needs” journal. I stamped out the prompts given in The Creative Entrepreneur, and answered them freely. It was all going smoothly until I was asked, “what do you want to accomplish?” That has been my unanswered question throughout my adult life. It is buried under so much self-doubt that it is going to take a metaphysical demolition crew to unearth the answer.
I suppose some people would think it is strange that I share these sort of thoughts in my very public blog. I know many people are surprised that I do share my failed projects as well as my successes. This blog started as a way to keep me on the path to developing a creative habit that I desperately needed to create a sense of self fulfillment. In order to keep going I had to share everything, not just my successes. I did that because I fear failure and the best way to overcome my fear is to publicly make minor failures.
I have learned it is not that bad. In the past few months I have had less to write about because I was cranking out jewelry for my trunk shows. Now that the holidays have passed and we have entered a new year, this blog will change a little too. I have my creative habit – now I want to see where it will go and I want to share that journey with you.
I will still make you laugh at/with me and I will share whatever projects I have decided to take on and resources I find, but I will also be writing about this little jewelry business I have started and where it goes. Up and down. I will continue to tell you how I have failed and how I have succeeded. Part of that involves sharing my “what the hell do I want to be if I grow up now that I have stopped denying my creative needs” journal as I work through it.